What a weekend. After having so many struggles, whether it was stress with academics, work, or food, I am glad to be feeling much better. I am more confident in my abilities to tackle this test, I am a good employee at work, and I am learning not to overeat and make healthy eating choices.
Making healthy eating choices is definitely a test for me. When I am at work, I get so hungry, and having a 50% discount at the restaurant on the course does not help. I can even work my magic and get free hotdogs and burgers at the snack shack, located after the 9th hole, right across from my office.
Its hard for me to make healthy choices when
delicious unhealthy options are so readily available. I’m not always going to be able to cook at home; I have to adjust for work and social activities, but its definitely something I struggle with. I want to eat fries and buffalo chicken wraps (my favorite), and I know how to make them in a healthy way at home, but I know they are not as healthy buying them out. Its something I have to learn, and its going to take a lot of practice and discipline, but its not going to happen overnight. I know its okay to indulge in moderation, but even doing that makes me feel guilty. A lot of that stems from my living situation abroad. I felt judged so hard if I made mashed potatoes with my chicken for dinner, drinking beer, or having a digestive (aka the best cookies in the world) as a late night snack. I know it was both of our faults; I could have eaten better, but they could have not been so bitchy judgmental. But hey, we’re all learning here.
Today will be a great day. I am having lunch with an old high school friend I haven’t seen all summer because she has been living in D.C, then its back to teaching clinics and hitting up the gym after. It will be a good day.